So heres some new pics....

My eye...haha

Whatever we were looking at was amazing, I assure you...

I suck at taking these kinda pictures, so you don't have to say so...

My BESTEST Friend in the ENTIRE world, NATALIE... I love her tons n tons...

My nephew, "cutest kid in the world" Isaiah....

My nephew at his "2nd" birthday party at ChuckECheese..

Sai on Thanksgiving... can you tell I love this kid yet?

I love this pic.... a lot

Just me...

Yes, she knows she's a D.O.R.K too...

I love Christmas, A LOT!

I'm thinking...

Hell hath no fury like a WOMAN s.c.o.r.n.e.d

Lol... I love this picture, for obvious reasons...

I actually decided to do my hair this day...

I was tired....

My hair looks EXTREMELY red... it almost matches my blankets...hahaha

Doin JUST f.i.n.e

Sooo... I figured I'd update b/c I havent in forever!!... I hope everyone had a great christmas... mine was fantabulous!! I got to see my family and spend time with them, which was amazing!!!...
So life's been pretty crazy for me. Working non stop, hanging out with friends I missed incredibly, and spending time with my family. So much has happened in the past couple months.... Mike and I broke up.  I have mixed emotions about it. In a way I miss him, and in a way i feel a little relieved. I guess it was a long time coming. I just wish it wouldn't have ended like it did. But, life is funny at handing you the answers you've sought for so long. I mean, don't get me wrong, I miss him and all; however, I feel so much happier and i feel like I can finally breathe. It was a constant worry when I was with him, and deep in my heart, I knew something was up, but I just pushed it aside (like i do TOO many times) and acted like everything was okay. All the while, I would cry myself to sleep, worry non stop, and just wish that things would change. You can't change people, no matter how hard you try... and it's hard for me, because I see the best in people and want them to fulfill their full potential, and when I see someone falling short of that, especially when it's someone I love, it hurts so much and I want to do all I can for them. I miss Mike, there's no denying it... but then again, I KNOW that we can't be together. At least not now. Who knows what the future holds.... I wish him the best with his life, and i hope he realizes what he's doing, what he had, and what he will never have if he doesnt straighten things out. I'm so much stronger now because of all of it, though. The saying is true "what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger." I know this is fate's crazy way of getting me ready for my destined life. It just seems like there's so many hurdles in life you have to get through before you can just take a sigh of relief and reflect back on everything. That seems like all I've been doing recently, is reflecting. I've been thinking about my past, present, and future. What I want to do with my life.... like where I want to go to school, what I REALLY want to do as a career, and where i want to live. Growing up is so hard, every little piece of it. ANd, no matter how hard you try, you cant run away from the truth, no matter how much it hurts sometimes...

Moving right along... I can't believe this year is almost over... GAH! where does all the time go!?!?! seriously... it seems like you close your eyes for one second, and its like WHAM! everything's changed.... or that's how it seems for me. Sometimes I wish life wasn't so fast paced... and humanity would just go on slowmotion... I htink life would be so much easier... in a lot of ways....
Blah blah...
well i dont have much else to say. I have to be at work in the morning... so i guess i should get some sleep.... but i hope everyone's christmas was amazing...
Let's end this year with a BANG people....

Duuuude...its been FOREVER since I've written in this thing, prolly bc Myspace has sucked up my lifeform so I thought I would....
So, life has been amazing...busy, but amazing. I've been working and hanging out with ppl... Halloween was ABSOLUTELY fantabulous!! haha. I dressed up for work and got 3rd place... not bad I guess... prolly due to my outlandish wings i bought/altered. they are probably the best investment I've ever made..haha =) So, after work, I passed out candy and then played with my nephew when he got back. That little booger is so cute... he didnt want to go home and leave me and he cried bc he coudln't take his "ammie" with him.... awwwww (no tears people, seriously)... but anywho... after that, natalie and I hung out for awhile, we saw some really outlandish hoish girls at walmart and I made remarks and got looks of death, HAHA it was amazing. ...anywho, we bought some hair dye for me and yeah yeah, so the next day, I dyed my hair (auburn) and I was flippin otu bc the hair coloring was REAAALLLLYY red and I was like "oh crap im gonig to look ridiculous" but, as it turns out, I LOVE IT! its prolly the second best investment i've ever made. Tehe... so yeah... after I finally got done fooling with my hair, Nat came and picked me up and we hung out and what not and went and hung out with Jacob and Joey... as a sort of "after halloween party".... TONS OF FUN! ha ha... I had to do something to get my mind off of Mike being in jail and not getting to see him for basically a whole week.... BOOOOOOO!!!!! but, yeah... so I ended up coming home at 5-6am in the morning and talked to moms for a lil bit, then hit the hay and then got called into work and I was sooo tired... blah blah... so that basically brings me up to the present...

So, I'm prolly going to be moving to Fort Wayne sometime soon... either before Christmas or right after, which I am TOTALLY stoked about. I'm ready to be out on my own, doing my own thing. It'll be a nice relief... YAY... welp, i guess that'll be about all folks cuz I'm going to go to bed relatively soon cuz I have to be up at 4am tomorrow. I hate working this early...its crap i tell ya, crap. There should be a law against having to work before the sun rises...especially this early in the morning. Ihope I get moved to nights soon...

Welp, I guess I'ma go to sleep. I hope all of you are doing well and what not....
♥Michael, I love you and miss you so much...
♥Nat, I love you a lot too and I've missed you and we need to hang out again REALLY soon... We're still the "sisters without blood..and you're my body still" ahha... FUUUNNN TIMES... oh yeah, and random shopping at target was crazy fun, and the socks are amazingly comfortable. We have to do it again... lol specially that late at night haha... love ya girly

I know Im kinda s.t.r.a.n.g.e, to you sometimes

Dont always say, whats on my mind

You know that Ive been h-u-r-t, by some guy

But I dont wanna mess up this time

And I really really really want you

And I think Im kinda scared

Cuz I dont want to l*o*s*e you

If you really really really care

Then maybe you can hang through

I hope you u.n.d.e.r.s.t.a.n.d

Its nothing to you

My hearts at a low

Im so much to manage

I think you should know that

Ive been damaged

Im f-a-l-l-i-n-g in l.o.v.e

Theres one disadvantage

I think you should know that Ive been damaged

I might look through your stuff, for what I dont wanna find

Or I might just set you up, to see if y.o.u.r.e-a*l*l-m.i.n.e

Im a little paranoid, from what Ive b-e-e-n t.h.r.o.u.g.h

Dont know what you got yourself into

And I really really really c*a*r*e*

(and I care about you so-much)

And I really really really want you

(I really do want you)

And I think Im kinda scared

(but Im scared with e.v.e.r.y. t.o.u.c.h.)

Cuz I dont want to l-o-s-e- y.o.u

If you really really really care

 (if you care for me like you say)

Then maybe you can h:a:n:g through

I hope you understand

Its nothing to you

My hearts at a l o w

Im so much to manage

I think you should know that

Ive been damaged

Im f-a-l-l-i-n-g in l.o.v.e

Theres one disadvantage

I think you should know that Ive been damaged
My hearts at a low

Im so much to manage

I think you should know that

Ive been damaged

Im falling in love

Theres one disadvantage

I think you should know that Ive been damaged

And I really really really want you

(I really do want you)

And I think Im kinda scared

(but Im scared with every touch)

Cuz I dont want to l-o-s-e y.o.u

If you really really really care

 (if you care for me like you say)

Then maybe you can hang through

I hope you u-n-d-e-r-s-t-a-n-d

Its nothing to you

My hearts at a low

Im so much to manage

I think you should know that

Ive been d.a.m.a.g.e.d

Im f-a-l-l-i-n-g in l.o.v.e